Normal

“When will you understand that being normal isn't necessarily a virtue? It rather denotes a lack of courage.”

nor·mal   [nawr-muhl] Show IPA
–adjective
1.
conforming to the standard or the common type; usual; not abnormal; regular; natural.
2.
serving to establish a standard.

The definitions go on forever, but this is sufficient to make my point. For the last few months, my life has drastically been changing, in all areas. I left a job I loved and will soon be starting another, I moved to a different city, i moved in with my family, I stopped living with my best friend who I had lived with for 5 years, and some of my most important and defining relationships have been facing a lot of changes. I have found myself constantly saying and thinking "I just want to feel normal again." After a fight, or a break or a breakup with someone we all find ourselves saying that we want to feel "norma"l. After beginning a new job, it just doesnt feel "normal" Living with new people in a new city doesnt feel "normal" I put normal in quotes because I realize I have no idea what normal is. I'm searching for this thing, this feeling of contentment, that everything is right; but I dont think it exists. I am young and just facing the real world and I know that I will continuously be faced with these life changes. As soon as I feel comfortable and "normal" again, things will change. I will move again, I will get married, I will have children...all of this way big changes than what I am facing right now. So I think I've decided to find that normalcy within myself. To not let outside sources, such as relationships, locations, or jobs affect how I feel to myself. If I feel content with myself regardless of what is going on, then maybe I can always feel "normal."